정말 귀여워요 - So cute !!

One of my best friends in CBS is a South Korean. He is very nice, like my older brother(though I don't have any brother actually). He is living with his family - his wife who is pregnant currently and one year old daughter - in New Jersey.  I found that it's tougher to go school while having family than expected. School life can be classified into three parts - study, social and career. Imagine that you have one more piece - family - to which, in principle, you need to be most committed. Under the situation where studying occupies the large portion of student life, say like 50-60%, you need to scale down your time to be allocated to social and career. I know that life is all about prioritizing. And "Win-Win" is superstitious when physical exposure is required. But, social and career are also two important components of student life in business school. You might want to have expanding network. You might want to seek for "the job". I've been seeing him grappling with this ever lasting conundrum and I've been symphasizing with him ever since I met him. Fortunately or unfortunately, I am very awful husband and farther.  Leaving whole my family in Japan allows me to allocate time to the three. I feel sad but it makes me feel a little bit complex by putting myself in his shoes.

Today, we studied in a study room in his apartment. We studied hard but it was impossible to stay focused on studying all the day. 

Luckily,  I had a good refreshment there - playing with his daughter. 

Last time I visited his apartment, I met her for the first time. At that time, she was very shy, shunning me and sticking to my friend. But our relationship finally thawed today! She is very adorable and cute. I wished I could have played with her without studying. My daughter in Japan is now 4 years old. I feel it's very far past when my daughter was her age though actually it reminded me of my daughter. Playing with his daughter is very fun. But this drove me to more complex feeling. However, my situation is no more than what I decided. Feeling complex is egoistic in a sense. On the way back home from his apartment, I just confirmed with myself about making the most of experiences here. This is what I can do and this is what I must do.